When I heard about his dead news, I was so shocked. I was like, 'is this a dream?' and I avoided checking my phone for few hours. Few hours after that, I checked my phone and the news said police has already confirmed it. I'm in between situation whether to cry or not. I was at my hometown at that time and the internet connection was not that good. I slept in disbelieve bcs it was late at night. The next day, my kpop friend sent me tons of message saying 'yah he already dead i cant believe he did that to himself', and I cried a bit. It was reality, not a dream. For few days, I kept checking out my instagram to believe what was happening actually until the news about EXO including Lay were attending JH's funeral. Then I heard news like Yeri passed out, Taeyeon unstable emotion, Key's crying, Onew's pale face, etc. It was kinda hard to accept this actually bcs he is my bias in SHINee.
Rest well, Jonghyun oppa. You did well ♥
